June 02, 2003 - 7:55 p.m.
send me a godamn angel... i'm in love ... embarassingly so... with Shannyn Sossamon. I mean... i just can't explain it... i love her. Her movies... too light to do her any justice just make it easier to sink... to watch her fucking gorgeous face. At first, same as before i came out... i was stuck in the envy-attraction bind.. thinking, she's so beautiful, i wanna look like that... fuck no, i wanna be with that... she's the only celeb i've ever drooled over. Ga ga ga. k, �'m done...
this rant was spawned by my watching Rules of Attraction, which, i may say, after watching the behind the scenes scene deconstruction seemed totally more artistic, less teen camp-college satire-intended to capture the stupidity of post adolescence... this film, inspite of it's witty trailer, caught the pitiful side of college life... with integrity, making us look more hopeful, aspiring individual crushed by nihilistic survival of the fittest world, less angsty-loserish wanna be cool scenester ready to live out their porn fantasy.
she is actually a great actress... surprisingly. but those eyes...
it's the way she says FEELS...
"I feel like I wear black a lot."
When she talked like that, in her husky voice, it made us feel like we knew how she felt, and we wanted to feel more.
i wanna feel more.
