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April 09, 2004 - 1:12 p.m. trying to recall what she meant when she said what she said so much that was not supposed to be said out loud and somehow it all seemed normal and sweet not wierd and unaffected we were left to choose our own time to leave and so, singing, 'I'm just a girl, take a good look at me Just your typical prototype Oh, I've had it up to here Oh, am I making myself clear? Am I making myself clear? I'm just a girl, I'm just a girl I'm just a girl, in the world That's all the you'll let be I'm just a girl living in captivity Your rules of thumb makes me worrisome I'm just a girl what's my destiny? What I've succumbed to, it's making numb I'm just a girl, my apologies What I've become is so burdensome I'm just a girl, lucky me Tweedledum there's no comparison Oh, I've had it up to, oh, I've had it up...' to here we tumble into bed and sing- there our own illustrations, the pictures on the walls, our bodies become more legible the less we conceal them scaling the walls with our shadows and reminding ourselves to look closer you scale me, my skin lies on the floor and i am undone please take me in pieces, build me up and knock me down strike one i've lost count and we sleep, so we sleep and i forget all but the feeling that something has happened five o'clock brings calls across the quad, singing sweet ladies in black, a group homogeneous in their difference, deliberate and striking, call out into the warmest air we've felt for months, and we carry armloads of cardboard, peeping open, unable to conceal the photographs that tell secrets that aren't really secrets because the truth is in our eyes, the truth is in letters like s, d and s and all the things that those letters stand for. and the people know, and i am not shy, it is written in print more than my beaming eyes can say. it is that skin that lights me, and other confessions, not private except in the context of each person's thoughts, reflected in scenes of scattered objects on floors, that recalls in us the same experiences of nostalgia... that day... could be that night. it was last night, following an afternoon of wine and sunshine that recreated that image, all images... we live in each picture and recreate it every moment we relive that feeling i am pulled i am stripped down i am so content and it has sent me to sleep with a lazy perfect smile
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