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June 15, 2004 - 1:22 a.m. Narcissus or the maybe laughter II blood . bruise, gash../ splatter. why do we hurt ourselves? eachother? this song is not for you... not only. I crash through walls of space; fly one day i will. i want to tell you want to say the thing that cannot be said. i want more books, more red more of your eyes and mine... meeting, sparking and speaking. i want to speak without speaking ** your vacillations make you even more beautiful. secret. fractured, broken , complicated and so beautiful. if only... ** these words could be spoken and not. written in the italics we use to speak of things that are myth only... we would be like Herakles and Geryon, recognizing ourselves in eachother... like italics. bent, not quite straight. sliding off the page... into... **** ...and i write these words which can only be held against me, in spite of... their inefficacy, and words i wish i could invest with more meaning... there is nothing i can do. but try i would try. if only i was there to tell you you would laugh and i would tell you. and i would too. **** now more... the real reason? how could you not? have you seen the girls... they're so lovely.... "absolutely lovely, i can't believe the loveliness of..." the the empty. emphatic reiterations- bending lilies, broken, suggestive intonnations... libation bearers... i cannot atone for this crime. the dancing girls sway pleasantly, like lilies... but awkward without the wind. and narcissus lonely reads herself in the water. drowning in thoughts of the other... whom she recognizes but does not know... and will i too, fall, like a piece of scenery... onto my bed, still not knowing? I waste but i am not gone. yet.
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