July 08, 2004 - 7:46 a.m.
THE EDITED RANT: MORE CONCISE>>> MORE CRYPTIC
*** Disclaimer: what you are about to read may be defined as a "rant". If you don't appreciate unmediated "ranting" please avert your eyes. Or maybe it isn't. Any stereotyping here in is used with a great deal of respect and consideration. ps. please imagine that as i write these things... i'm being more than slightly sarcastic / saucy, and it goes without saying that i am prone to making sweeping generalizations. That said, please proceed.
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washing down a night's worth of hard labout with a lychee martini
i am armed with a handbag and a loaf of pumpernickel bread... which fits conveniently into said handbag... and unfortunately broke the strap off of it... nonetheless, for a night's wind down i am ready.. and prepared with a breakfast, lunch and dinner... should the need arise.
I sit with "madonna" (not esther) debating the phenomenon of hotness saturation...a long haul ensued whereby i deliberately broke down stereotypes about how I was supposed to look based on who i envisioned myself to be, and having broken these codes i then remodelled myself after the less offensive stereotypes, in order to be allowed access to the "group identity" which i quickly inverted to break those same assumptions and proudly proclaim...
"yes, i can wear a tool belt and mascara simultaneously... It can be done. I have done it and I am a force to be reckonedd with".
I then sloshed my way home, pumpernickel in bag, and pondered what i already knew and what could be gained by this insight.
In the "real" world, there is far more variety in terms of what is beautiful in the feminine sphere... and all that falls in between the spectrum of gendered (or imagined gendered) beauty... is even more alluring... because fucking with stereotypes is just that... fucking. mind fucking. and fuck, i just love that.
