October 30, 2005 - 8:17 a.m.
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it was the way I was so intimidated by them. it rarely happens. the way that their gaze made you feel like the center of something huge, but also secretive. When they take that gaze away, it feels like you don't even exist anymore.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SWEET, WIERD AND WONDERFUL COMMENTS ON MY SET. THANK YOU FOR NOTICING MY ARM HAIR AND MY ROCKSTAR BELLYBUTTON. What puzzles me is that no one noticed that I am missing tattoos in this set that were already on my body in the last set. Just to catch you all up, I now have three other tattoos that are not in those pictures, and my nipples have new jewellery. Also, my hair is blonde. Sort of.
So, I'm reading Jeanette Wintersons "GUT SYMMETRIES"
and it's confirming my suspicion that she is one of the most brilliant writers I've ever read.
"Too close and language fails. He believes that Number and Word are one and he speaks in numbers and words, trying to remake in his own body the unity he apprehends".
"When I sleep I dream and when I dream I fall back into my fears. The gold watch is there, ticking time away, and I have often tried to climb inside it and jam the mechanism with my body."
I acquired this book from a girl I once knew. There are two inscriptions in the front. One to her ex-lover, the first girl who received this book from her, and one to me. I don't know how to qualify myself in her life, except to say that our paths cross infrequently, but there is always a slyness about her smile that reminds me that she remembers. I like that she made no effort to hide the first inscription.
