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September 26, 2003 - 9:20 a.m. Hey sav, if you're looking for your reply it's on the previous page... nuff about YOU, how bout what i really wanted to talk about. it�s all here. Found once..more. Unless she blocks it out, shuts me away again. The pagn in my heart hit me when i clicked, by chance, on you. and i wonder now, how much you know about my life. If you've seen me lately and thought... it doesn't really matter how much we say, because I know. You've heard it all in the diluted trickle down that ends up... Here. I'm sorry for all the i'm sorries i never got to tell you. These words, your words are a tribute...to what a beautiful human being you are... and to how hard i wish i could know you again, but how unlikely i think that might be. 2002-04-23 - 10:09 p.m. Explain more relentless than I contain The less time I have, the more I need to know Spill my brain and find me the answer It's all in my length And out of my control... You finally understand your painful movements Hold still for a moment so I can find where you left me Endured and dropped and picked up by you Invisible reality shakes down your perception The passion of you never felt the anger Loathe what you adore and throw it back at me So hard passing through I forgot what it was you wanted me for... Lagging in your under tow I'm free but still pulled I lost my dignity somewhere In between my devotion and my shelter You could have left me with nothing It would have felt like more I left my strength lying Underneath your protected words... Compare my mistakes to you Centered in yourself parading about you With all I could have changed It could still never have touched you... You held me under Beating words harder than speaking hands Once you're done with what I had I'll pull you up to meet me... Following in my recovery I'm amazed at how much you see Now that you're behind me... 2002-04-29 - 1:24 a.m. I remember your day, I remember its time I remember how you didn't want me to come But I forced myself beside you I thought I could change your mind... Once more I'll touch you Feel my life in your eyes All you need is to hold me There's more between this Then just us... I remember your position, when I came into your room Standing on old territory under a new name I remember thinking how beautiful you were How you were worth anything I could give Last time I was here, I was everything But now I'm just a friend... So angry at you It was like I needed it Sitting on old dreams I'm defenceless Even this softness seems hard Talking couldn't help Pulling you close did less You hate the sound of my weakness I cry because I've got nothing left... I remember the look you gave me When I reached out for you It was like I'd never done it And like you never wanted me too... I remember how I shook And how you never moved All I wanted was a reaction Or something that would remind me of you... You can't ignore me forever I won't just walk away Don't try to convince me it's over It's the only thing I know is real I remember telling you I'd change I'll be what you need me to be Hate me if you really want to But please Don't try to forget how you feel... I'll endure whatever you give I'll be strong as I wait here for you I'll love you until you come back to me It's not like I've got anything better To do... I understand my mistakes I know why you're leaving You don't need to explain a thing to me Except why this is happening...
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